Is Depression Real?

I had someone say to me “I don’t get depressed” when I told them I was being treated for depression. I thought to myself, what was your reason for saying that? The tone in the persons voice came across as if your depressed, somethings wrong with me. I also had a similar comment from someone else when my Mom told them that I suffer from anxiety as well. In this case, the person said “He doesn’t have anxiety” as if they knew the things that I deal with mentally on a daily basis.

The frustration that i have to deal with when people make these types of comments can get overwhelming sometimes because I feel that I am looked at as being weak, faithless and so on. I’ve even had someone tell me that I don’t have faith in God because I have anxiety (which I’m being medicated for). Believe me, I have faith in God because if I didnt, I wouldn’t have made it through the things I’ve made it through all my life.

I experienced people getting frustrated with me because I take meds for my anxiety/depression and it alters my mood and personality and they dont like the “new me”. Then I have those who are frustrated because I don’t really want to be on the meds because of the side affects and claim I’m not helping myself by coming off of them. Sometimes I wonder what is going on with me because how people react to me because of this.

I wake up every morning with a great amount of anxious feelings. As I start my day I take my meds, read my bible verses, drink my Black tea and watch the news. By midday, I feel a little calmer than I did when I woke up. Most of the day is kind of neutral as I go about my daily routines. Once I go to bed, i’m usually thinking about my next day. The feelings that I go through on a daily basis seems REAL to me and I do whatever I can do to cope with it. So, when someone asks if there is a such thing as depression or anxiety I say yes, you have to experience it to know what someone is going through.

Outsidethechi,

 

 

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